A New Year...

now i can start off fresh! with all the last update blogs, it is kinda weird to start a new. january has already bought new baby things, john leaving again, registering, and fun at work.
new baby things - we went the first saturday to Ikea in search for a crib, changing table, and rocking chair, plus whatever misc. items we could find. after a while that store can get really tiring and i got frustrated by the end. we settled on a crib and rocker. while we were searching for stuff in their huge warehouse, i got things mixed up and couldn't find the rocker padding. i totally missed it was in a different area and walked to information demanding they tell me why it wasn't in the location i thought it to be in. the guy at information said if it's not there, they were out of stock and i can possibly buy the floor model upstairs by asking the manager. so through the maze walkway i go all the way upstairs... get stopped by an employee who calls back downstairs to check their stock. he tells me it was available downstairs and before they sell the demo, i needed to go back down and confirm. so again, through the maze, and back downstairs. check with information again and then it hits me its a different area than where i had thought it was. i felt so dumb getting mad and not finding it correctly in the first place, both of which are not me. chalk one up to prego brain... i guess.
anyway, crib and rocker and padding are safe in the second bedroom waiting to be put together.
john leaving - we got the stuff right before john left for a training in Yorktown.... he is still there and that Ikea trip was last week. tonight talking to him on the phone - for skype was not working as his computer is acting funky - i was so mad about the simplest things, so mad he is gone, so mad that i am alone, so SO mad... why now? why now when i am in the middle of creating a human being in me, does he leave? we does our love story include separation? why can't he have a normal job and come home every night after 5pm? why can't he be here for me? Uncle Sam.... that is why. john's commitment to serve, that is why. the need of the service, that is why. i get it, but i don't have to like it.

registering - Amazon, Target, and WalMart... haven't decided which to keep and use and which to trash. there is so much baby stuff out there and you can get it all!! lol, i highly doubt much will be fullfilled, but one can wish and that is why i register.

fun at work - all this registering has been mostly done at work. i like work, and am going to miss it when i am not doing it anymore. i got bigger this week and people now ask about the baby lots. also, offer maternity clothes and ask how i am doing. it is nice to have a place where people show they care - if only in passing. i feel important and special at work. i am glad i have it, and in these times, work is the only thing to get me through.