changes

oh man, where to begin:
life: ok, still tring to keep making it through this externship. i have mixed feelings about staying on and well, sometimes seriously doubt they will be offering me a position. again, i hate being constantly under the microscope. i wish there wasn't so much pressure and i actually like what i am doing... well i love what i am doing, but being pushed to speed up and make sure everything is right - sucks.... still i do accept the fact that i suck, but i also wish i was done.
love: John, awe, my friend...my person...my special someone(sos)....
spirituality: Our church building burned down two sundays ago. we were in it for stake conference watching a satalite broadcast from Salt Lake when Brenna and Emallie smelled smoke. Ten minutes later the fire alarm broke out. People moved slowly but eventually got out. Smoke was all over the roof and once the firefighters got there, it was on fire. Amazing really, and well, they couldn't save the building and I watched a piece of LDS history go up in flames. Slightly shocking really.